Ritalin

We heard back from the phsychologist last week; they said they will do a complete evaluation but that they have up to 60 days to complete it. Considering this I called the pediatricain who then prescribed Ritalin. She wanted Alex to start on a lose dose (5mg. twice daily) and see how it goes. On Sunday we gave it a try; I gave Alex the Ritalin with her A.M. dose of hydro. She woke up a couple hours later and said she felt less groggy than usual first thing in the morning. She also said she felt "stupid", because she could only focus on one thing at a time. She thought it might be helpful for school work but wasn't so sure she liked the feeling. By noon she was getting a headache and took the second dose. The headache lingered through the afternoon. By early evening when the Ritalin should have been wearing off the headache got really bad. By 8:00 the headache was so bad she thought we might need to go to the hospital. Along with the headache she started feeling A.I. She took 2.5 mg of hydro, waited a half hour, took another 2.5mg waited another half hour and took 5mg. With the extra hydro things started improving including the headache.

Now the questions... was Ritalin the cause of the headache? Was it the cause of the A.I.? Could the headache pain have caused her body to need more hydro? It's frustrating! The plan is to wait a few days and try the Ritalin one more time, one dose in the morning, and try and do school work while on it. If it doesn't work out we'll get a prescription for something else.

The GYN Appointment

We saw the GYN yesterday. Two and a half years ago we were referred to Dr. Warner to see if he could help with her chronic daily migraine. We both really liked him, and felt like he was quite knowledgeable. He is retired from his "regular" GYN practice and now just does hormone replacement therapy using bio-identicals.

He was able to look over Alex's labs and have us tell him what was going on and conclude that she is not ovulating, and explain to us how he knows that is the problem. Like I said, he's a smart guy! She is not making progesterone, or at least not enough to cause ovulation to occur. In turn she has breakthrough bleeding and pain 10 out of every 28 days.

He is starting her on a bio-identical progesterone cream twice daily on days 10 to 24 of her cycle. On day 28 she should then have a normal period caused by progesterone withdrawal. That's what would happen naturally if her body was doing what it's supposed to.

ADD/ADHD

We saw the pediatrician yesterday for the ADD/ADHD evaluation. They had us fill out an evaluation prior to seeing the doctor. The doctor came in and went over the forms and said she definitely fits the profile for ADD. The scoring is in several different categories and Alex's number was extremely high in the "cognitive" category. I have been worried that Cushing's has caused Alex to have cognitive deficits and just hadn't gotten around to talking to anyone about it. There is research that acknowledges it's a known problem with kids who've had Cushing's. Anyway, especially with this considered in, Alex is being referred to an Educational Neuropsychologist for further evaluation.

The pediatrician in willing to prescribe Ritalin, but would prefer Alex have the testing done with this new guy first. If he can't get her in shortly we will go ahead and start Alex on Ritalin. Right now we are just waiting for him to call back.

So that's one more diagnosis to add to the mix, and maybe cognitive deficits as well? It never ends does it?

We Spoke with Dr. F.

I'm feeling overwhelmed with all I need to accomplish before Christmas, but if I don't do this post now I'll never get around to it.

Sunday night we spoke with Dr. F regarding Alex's ongoing issues. He feels her lack of energy may be from either too little hydro or too little Florinef based on the labs. Renin was dead on center normal, and Alex and I have tweaked till we felt it was the perfect dose so I don't feel like it's the Florinef. I've continued to think we need to get her hydro dose lower still but the 24hr UFC/OHCS looks quite low, leading him to believe she needs more if anything.

He wants to see another Free T4 before he would consider thyroid replacements. Her numbers are still within range and once you start thyroid meds it's generally for life, so he wants to wait for now.

As far as the female hormones he would like us to consult a GYN. We set up an appointment next week and they will probably start her on bio-identicals.

Dr. F would really like for her to have the GH stim test, her numbers have been continually dropping though they are still within the reference range. The values are higher every year until 18, so hers should be going up not down. We will ask her local endo if he is willing and able to order it; we see him in January. The cost to have it done in L.A. is significant, since insurance won't cover testing done at ETLA.

Friday Alex has an appointment to see her pediatrician for a consultation regarding AD/HD, and the possibility of getting medicated for it.

One more thing? She's down another 3 pounds. That makes 17 since surgery.

It's Been a While

I haven't posted in quite some time. It's now been almost 5 months since Alex's BLA. I had really hoped things would be better than they are at this point, but I can't really complain, or maybe I can....the weight loss stopped as quickly as it started. She gained 15 pound at the time of surgery and lost those over the past 5 months, but she hasn't gotten any lower. Her energy level is still bleak; she is losing a lot of hair, and having trouble with concentration. She has frequent headaches and has been having some GI pain.

We did run some labs and it looks like her female hormones and thyroid are tanking. Considering these are hormones produced by the pituitary I think she is going hypo pituitary. I was really hoping we had years before this happened. Anyway, we have a phone appointment with Dr. F. this weekend. I'm hopeful he will start her on some additional meds that will help out.

We went to UCSF on Friday for the yearly follow up MRI. We didn't see a doctor so I'm not sure how that is supposed to work. Dr. Kunwar ordered it for us, but they said we didn't need to see him. I sent the request to get the MRI on disk and to get the written reports from both radiology and Dr. Kunwar. Dr. F. had suggested prior to the BLA that if we went with a BLA she should probably have radiation as well, since the tumor was still visible on MRI a year ago. I've ignored the idea up to this point, but now I guess we will see what the new MRI looks like.

Weight Loss

Finally! Another 2 pounds down since I posted 2 days ago! I'm scared to get this excited about anything. I've come to the point where I don't trust good news, sad but true. The fact that the weight is coming off at about a pound every other day makes it feel really promising, and less like a fluke.

It seems that getting to 20mg of hydro was really the trick. She has been consistently at that dose for 10 days and lost 5 pounds in that time frame. We have messed around a lot with the Fludro dose and still don't know if we have it right, but she is now taking 1.5 tabs daily.

Besides the weight loss the acne seems to be clearing up again and the hump is looking smaller. Alex's appetite is controlled at this dose as well, which will make dieting a whole lot easier for her.

I'm keeping my fingers crossed!

I Met Another BLA'er

On Saturday I met with Sybil (Sylvia) from the cushings-help message boards. Aside from talking to a few possible Cushies in Dr. F.'s waiting room this was my first ever face to face with another Cushing's patient. Sybil had pituitary surgery (failed) with Dr. McC about 6 months before Alex's pituitary surgery and she had her BLA With Dr. Chiang about 6 months before Alex had hers. Sybil was also diagnosed by Dr. F. after fighting many years with the local endos. We spent 2 hours chatting and had a great time. She is really fun and had lots of insight into the changes a body goes through with recovery.

Alex is finally down to 20mg of hydro a day and has lost a few more pounds. Since surgery she is down a total of 7. We have a really long way to go 100+ pounds is the goal. At least the number is going down consistently instead of up.

Called In To See the Principal

I so hate this. I got a phone call from Alex's high school counselor earlier this week, the principal needs to meet with us. I ended up going in sans Alex; she wasn't up to it. I had to meet with the counselor and the new principle. I've decided I want the old principal back. I didn't cry 'till I was back home.

I understand their viewpoint, I feel the same way. Alex has completed 60 credits out of 260 needed to graduate. She won't graduate at this pace (duh). She is a junior, less than 2 years left to accomplish the goal. None of this is news to me, but I don't know what I'm supposed to do about it. I was told to push her harder. If I push any harder one of us (or both) is going to break. I'm sure, to the school, I just look like a mom who doesn't care, who thinks dropping out is an option. That's so not me, but how do I get that across to them? They said we need a note from the doctor saying exactly what Alex is "able" to do. They say " the doctor must be able to do something. The doctor must understand how this will affect her life." Really? Who is this doctor they speak of? I'd like to meet him. We are on our own... the doctors say give it time.

Tick, tick, tick.

Two Months Ago Today

It's been quite a while so I decide I should say something.

We have reached the two month post-op point and I don't quite know what to think. Things are going okay, but not great. We were forewarned that recovery was likely to take a year. I think we are really just expecting too much too soon. We saw such major improvements right away, but since then there have been no significant changes.

Alex seems to have enough energy (spoons for those who know what I'm talking about) to make it through about 2 hours of activity daily. That means she can work for 2 hours, or do school work for 2 hours, or shop for 2 hours. That's really a huge improvement from how she was prior to surgery, but darn it we want more! It seems like there is always a problem that calls for more hydro: the flu shot, her menstrual cycle, catching a cold. Each thing seems to take over her body for a week and put recovery at a standstill. It's very frustrating.

We are still fighting the fatigue, headaches, and anxiety, and have seen only a few pounds of weight loss. Oh, and a new thing...both knees are twitching constantly to the point it has made her legs ache and have a bit of visible bruising. Weird. I'm thinking maybe her potassium is low or we need to reduce her Florinef.

My Cushie friend Robin sent me some articles on BLA recovery and quality of life. I need to let them sink in and realize this is gonna take some time.

Adrenal Pathology

Diagnosis: "Diffuse adrenal cortical hyperplasia bilaterally". Strangely those words are music to my ears! I always request pathology reports, surgery reports, and anything else I can get copies of. Last week I got some in the mail. It was an envelope full of validation.

Right adrenal gland: tan yellow adrenal gland, 7.5 grams, 5 x 2.5 x 1.3 cm. thickness... a small cyst without cystic contents is present in the mid portion of the specimen...the cortex of the specimen is gray-tan and uniformly soft. The medulla is golden yellow and uniformly rubbery, no discrete lesions are identified.

Left adrenal gland: tan yellow adrenal gland, 17 grams, 7 x 5 x 1.5 cm. The cortex is gray tan and uniformly soft the medulla is golden yellow and uniformly soft...no discreet lesion is identified.

So, one adrenal was double size and the other was four times normal size. Interesting how on scan these were supposedly normal. I'm interested in the cyst and in why one medulla is describes and rubbery but the other as soft. If there is time I will ask Dr. Friedman tonight, but I won't waste my 20 minutes if I've got too many other things to discuss.

I got the surgical report as well, there were a couple of things of interest. The adrenal gland were somewhat adherent, consistent with stimulation by ACTH...there were some adhesions from the liver posteriorly and these were taken down...the spleen was quite large. I don't know the significance, but this means the adrenals were "sticky" and had started adhering to other organs. a large spleen, I don't know?

Am I tempted to send these report along with a letter to the nay sayer doctors we have seen over the years? Yep! Will I actually do it? I don't know! It does feel good having validation.

The Headaches Continue

I haven't seen much change since my last post. Overall Alex is still better than she was prior to the BLA. She is now on what may be a maintenance dose, but I doubt it. She is on 2 Florinef pills, split into 4 doses, and takes hydro 3 times daily, split 17.5-5-2.5. She has had a headache almost continuously for the past 2 weeks. It is really frustrating. It worries her that it's the pituitary tumor in their acting up again, but I really think it's about getting the medication dosages correct. We have a phone appointment with Dr. Friedman on Sunday; I hope he will shed some light in the problem.

Once she got to the lower morning dose of hydro she quit getting out of bed early, but she does manage to get up by 9:00 or so. She showers and gets dressed every day and has been chauffeuring me around on errands trying to get in her 50 hours of driving with a permit, before she can try for a license. Most of the changes we saw immediately post op came to a stand still, but we are hoping to see more improvement with lower medication dosages. For now, at least, she is sleeping at night and the GI stuff is gone.

Three Weeks and Gratitude

I am emotionally overwhelmed this morning. I am thankful to God and to all of our family and friends who have supported us through the years. We wouldn't be here without all my friends and advisers at cushings-help.com. Thank you all. The tears are flowing.

So, the big news? Today is Alex's first day of work. I truly believed that it was likely she would never be well enough to leave the house; that she would live with us forever on permanent disability into adulthood. Many times I felt she would die before she was cured. It is incomprehensible that after only 3 weeks she has shown such vast improvement.

There have been a lot of ups and downs over the past couple weeks, but the steady progress forward is apparent. The GI stuff has all normalized, we hope that means Crohn's is a thing of the past but realize this may just be a remission. The headaches have been bad, but we think that once we get the dosages stable on both the hydro and fludro things will improve. Most mornings she is up at 7:00 or 7:30 feeling fine but there seems to be a mid afternoon crash, with tiredness and headache for the rest of the day. We are still working on it.

Stay tuned for more positive updates!

It Will Be Two Weeks Tomorrow

I am so happy to see things still progressing in the right direction. I can't believe how quickly things have changed. Alex gets up and out of bed every day...usually around 7:00 am. That is amazing compared to what time she was dragging herself out of bed, noon or 1:00 pm. Not only does she get out of bed, she is taking a shower every day and running errands with me!

Yesterday she met with her school counselor and registered for classes that start on the 10th. She isn't taking any online classes because she thinks she will be feeling well enough to actually go to the campus. Later in the day she bought a new desk for her room because she is excited to get started on school work. And another thing? She has a job interview, and it sounds like a sure thing. The Montessori preschool the kids went to is interested in hiring her part time and they are willing to work around her health/recovery!

We are still weaning; her current hydro dose is 20-10-2.5. She is taking half a Florinef in the am and half in the pm and she also started DHEA last week.

She's Melting!

It is so bizarre! I really don't understand how this happens but Alex's appearance is changing. She looks like she has lost a lot of weight but she hasn't actually lost any at all. Her face shape is different and her belly looks so much smaller. Brian thought it might be the change from fat to more muscle but that doesn't make sense at this point. She is still doing absolutely nothing; well, okay she did leave the house yesterday for the first time, but she sure isn't doing anything to build muscle yet!

Years ago when I first believed that Cushing's was the issue there were times we would see her face shape change. Every once in a while we would be sitting at the table eating dinner and Brian and I would look at her and look at each other and both see it at the same time. That silent communication thing (30 years together) where we said nothing but silently acknowledged that she had changed yet again before out eyes.

I am excited! It feels like we are started down a road to recovery!

One Week Post-Op

At this point we have reduced the dosage of hydro to 30-15-10, with reductions every day. We plan to get labs done soon and start DHEA after that. We also plan to start the Florinef soon, probably tomorrow, we are waiting to get to a lower dose of hydro before starting the Florinef. I think we will start with 1/4 tab a day and increase by 1/4 tab 'till we get to 1/2 pill twice a day.

We were told to expect recovery to be two steps forward one step back, that seems pretty accurate. Yesterday was a bad day. Alex was having a lot of pain and some major mood swings and depression.

On the positive side, things are changing. Her acne is vanishing, her skin has more color, the stretch marks are fading, the hump is smaller. Her weight hasn't changed, but she looks different. Her face looks thinner and her belly looks different; it looks like a fat person tummy instead of a pregnant tummy. Between the belly and the hump improving her posture looks different; it's hard to explain, but she looks taller and thinner. I didn't realize how much the hump was causing her to slouch.

I know she feels like poop, but we can see positive changes. Things are getting better.

Bilateral Adrenalectomies

We spent the night prior to surgery in San Francisco. We were up at 4:30, out of the hotel at 5:30 and at the hospital by 6:00. They called us back to prepare at 6:45. As opposed to the last surgery this prep was completely different. Everyone was more relaxed, the anesthesiologist hung out with us, Dr. Duh came by to chat, and the IV wasn't a problem. They rolled her away from us at 7:30. Someone form the hospital checked in with us and gave us updates every hour or so during surgery. At 2:30 Dr. Duh came to find us and tell us how it went while his team finished up with her. He is really great, he acts as though he has all the time in the world to talk. He said it all went well; her adrenals looked like "Cushing's adrenals", inflamed. He also said she had a lobular spleen, nothing to worry about.

In recovery they were giving Alex Morphine that wasn't working and Fentanyl that was. The switched the Morphine to Dilaudid and that helped with the pain.The pediatric floor was full so they put Alex into an overflow of ped's on another floor for the first night. It was nice, because she got a private room and a nurse with only 2 patients. After 24 hours they switched her into a shared room in ped's.

Because of the recent Crohn's flare they brought in the ped's GI team. With the nausea prior to surgery it was hard to gage what was what and they really wanted her to eat. After the first two nights in-patient they told us she could leave once three things happened; she needed to eat something (she had literally not eaten anything in a week besides 3 bread sticks and 10 Ritz crackers), she needed to get off the IV pain meds, and onto only Vicodin, and she needed to poop (that had been a week as well). After 3 nights she had eaten and gotten off the IV, so they let her leave without a bowel movement.

The ride home was interesting. They gave her a Vicodin before we left and called the Rx into the pharmacy at home. That meant we had to race for home to get her next dose. Sunday afternoon traffic was heavy but Brian did his best to drive 80 mph despite it. She was feeling awful by the time we got her meds, but we made it from dose to dose in 4 hours.

On to recovery!
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This Is It~ The Time Has Come!

We leave for S.F. later today, when Brian gets home from work. It's lucky we booked a room for tonight; the surgeons office called to tell us she has been bumped up to 7:30am with a 6:00 arrival time tomorrow morning at the hospital. The good news there is that she doesn't have to go without food and water till noon, and with the earlier appointment they only ask you to arrive 1.5 hours prior to surgery instead of 3.

Since the Sunday trip to the hospital Alex hasn't been able to eat anything. The abdominal pain is better and there has been no more bleeding, but she still has diarrhea and is very nauseous. She's taking Zofran for the nausea but it doesn't seem to be doing much good. We saw the G.I. doctor yesterday. She thinks the high dose steroids in hospital will be a nice treatment for the Crohn's. She says move forward, get the surgery done, get on a maintenance dose of steroids and then we will do the scopes again. I suppose the Crohn's was aggravated by stress. Between the upcoming surgery and having the dog die on Saturday it was just too much.

So... this is it!

G.I. Bleeding and the E.R.

Yesterday morning when Alex woke up she was complaining of really bad abdominal pain. What started out feeling like constipation eventually turned into diarrhea, followed by bleeding. I guess maybe that's normal with Crohn's? I don't know; it's never happened to her before. She was pale, shaking, and nauseous as well so I called the advice nurse who told us to go directly to the E.R.

They ended up giving her fluids, pain meds, anti-nausea meds, running labs and ordering a CT. Even with both Zofran and Reglan in her system she had a really hard time drinking the contrast without puking. They consulted with her G.I. doc and let us leave about 10:00 last night. I called the G.I. doc this morning to see her for follow up and we will be going in tomorrow. Alex really isn't feeling any better today, and the anxiety it's causing isn't helpful. She's really worried they will cancel surgery.

Will this stuff ever end?

One Week To Go

Dr. F was supposed to call Tuesday night; they rescheduled to Wednesday night between 5:00 and 7:00. I waited till 10:00 and the went to bed after sending their office an email. This morning there is a response saying he is sorry and will call this morning around 8:00. This should be a quick, easy call, I'm not expecting any problems!
Alex has her first lesson driving with an instructor today. She got her permit about 2 weeks ago, but in California it isn't valid until you drive with an instructor. Brian took her out twice and I took her once, despite it being illegal. It seems pretty dumb to me to put a 15 year old behind the wheel for the first time in a neighbor hood full of people, cars, and traffic. Brian found an area where development of a neighborhood was halted by the economy- roads with no people- a ghost neighborhood! It will take 6 months to get her license, 5 lessons with an instructor and 50 hours behind the wheel with one of us. With surgery and recovery I imagine it will take more than the 6 months.

8 Days To Go

It's finally getting close! We have a pre-op phone appointment with Dr. Friedman tomorrow night and a pre-op phone appointment with the "prepare clinic" on Monday. The surgeons office called yesterday and has me a bit worried (only because experience has taught me too many things can go wrong). They offered the option of a pre-op with the surgeon for Friday; I declined. I feel like our prior appointment with him was sufficient and really don't want to do the 5 hours of driving, round trip, for no reason. They also said Dr. Duh would like to speak with Dr. Friedman this week to "confirm everything". I sent an e-mail and will also ask Dr. F to do this when I speak with him tomorrow. This is where I'm afraid of there being a wrench in the plan.

I finally heard back from the cardiologist, sort of anyway. I didn't get complete results on the echocardiagram, just a note on a script pad saying she had cardiac clearance for surgery. I told them to fax me everything and that was all they sent over.

This and That

I guess I've been busy: I sure haven't been blogging. Nick graduates from high school tomorrow and I'm finally done with work on the Sober Grad Committee. We turned in Alex's text books as well, so we are on break for now.
The cardiologist did an EKG last week and we are set up for an echocardiagram on Monday. So far he said the good news is he doesn't think there is anything wrong with her heart, the bad news is he can't fix the pain. If everything still looks okay on Monday we need to call the GI doc again and set up an appointment for upper and lower scopes.
Counting down... surgery is 5 weeks from today.

Cardiology, Add Another Doc

Over the past two weeks or so Alex has had some new stuff going on. It started with what I guess are anxiety attacks. She had feeling of doom and gloom, felt like her heart was racing, tightness in her chest and she was pretty emotionally unstable. I took her in to the pediatrician who rx'd Xanax; it has worked pretty well. She says it helps her to calm down anyway, and not worry so much.

Aside from the tightness in her chest she has also been having severe stabbing type pains a couple times daily. We were assuming it was heartburn; she has reflux a lot and is taking Nexium twice a day, but this was different. We talked to her GI Doc on the phone and she said to try Tagamet; it has helped some...maybe. We managed to actually get in to see the GI doc and she prescribed Carafate; thinking possible duodenal ulcer. She said if it didn't work we needed to get Alex a cardiac consult.

I called back yesterday and told the doctor the Carafate didn't seem to help and it was causing severe diarrhea. So, now they are arranging a cardiac consult. They want to get her an EKG and echocardiagram to make sure her heart isn't the problem. Alex originally told me she thought she was having a heart attack. I'd like to bury my head in the sand now, but this needs to be taken off the table before she undergoes surgery. Anyone see the House episode with the young girl with Cushing's? She presented with a heart attack.

The Never Ending Low

The last couple weeks have been so weird. Alex has been in such an extreme low it's unbelievable. She has lost 10 pounds, she has no appetite, the acne is gone, and other symptoms are going as well, but she feels AWFUL. This is what I expect after the BLA, not before. She has been taking whopping doses of hydro ( 5mg at a time, but up to 30 or 35mg in a day) just to keep from vomiting and shaking. Along with feeling physically awful she seems to be in a really major depression. I just don't know what to think. I'm theorizing that her pituitary has completely quit making ACTH on it's own, it's gone to sleep as the tumor has taken over it's job. The problem with that is that when the tumor cycles off her pituitary isn't "waking back up" to fill in the gap anymore. After the BLA she is supposed to live on 25mg. of hydro a day, so I really don't get why she needs more than that now. Hopefully things cycle again soon and change. this isn't a fun place to be.

What's In A Name?

Cancer.I've thought about this a lot lately. Our last two visits to doctors were both to see surgeons who primarily treat cancer patients. Their offices were filled with a collection of bald-headed chemo patients and those wearing masks to prevent infection. It is truly heartbreaking. While Alex and I were saddened to see this it also opened her eyes. "I'm really sick, aren't I?" It's funny; you tell someone Cushing's Disease, and you might as well have said you have a headache. You tell them cancer and the world changes. I'm not diminishing cancer by any means, but it would be nice to have a "label" that would help people understand the seriousness of this disease. My mom had cancer, my dad had cancer, even Brian had skin cancer, but they got a diagnosis, got treatment and were able to go on with life.

I don't think it's completely accurate but some text books state that the survival rate for Cushing's is 50% at 5 years if untreated. Add to that that the typical patient doesn't get properly diagnosed for 7 years. Nice discrepancy, huh? I'm sure it sounds dramatic but some days I'm really scared we won't make it to the finish line. Surgery doesn't scare me, the disease does.

A Surgery Date, Finally!

I said I would be happy if they would just call and tell me the date. I lied. I'm still not happy. ELEVEN weeks from now, July 16th. There is no way to get in sooner. Dr. Duh wants it scheduled at the Children's Hospital at UCSF; he usually does surgeries at the UCSF Cancer Center across town. He did tell us he would want to do it there because he would be able to put her in the pediatric ICU, where he feels she will get better care. I just wasn't getting the fact that he only has certain, limited, days available to him at that facility.

School starts mid August and I was really hoping she would be able to start the new school year partially recovered. I have heard so many different things when it comes to recovery that I have no idea what to expect. The surgical recovery shouldn't be bad. It's the recovery from Cushing's and trying to get the meds right that can take months, or years. It seems that those who have had Cushing's the longest and are in the "worst" condition are the ones who take the longest to recover. That doesn't give me much hope for a speedy recovery. I think Alex has probably had it since birth and her condition couldn't get much worse.

Hope... or Lack Thereof

Some days hope eludes me. I went to bed last night with a headache and in tears. This morning is starting the same way. In the words of Forrest Gump "Sometimes there just aren't enough rocks". I've thrown all my rocks, and I'm still feeling heartbroken. Between the medical stuff and financial problems I handle it; until I add another thing to tip the scale.

Nick is graduating in June, only 6 weeks from now. While I should be celebrating, instead it just gives me more to worry about. He has Sr. Ball in 2 weeks; tickets are $150.00! Besides tickets we need to rent a tux, buy a corsage, what else? Then there's Sr. picnic, and Sober Grad Night and Sr. Sunrise and, and, and, the list goes on. I have the time, just not the money or the mindset.

Even this all falls back on THE ILLNESS. While I watch one child move forward it's hard not to see the other held back by disease. Both kids always loved school and all the social stuff that goes with it. I don't think Alex resents it as much as I do. For her it's become a way of life. Of course that just breaks my heart even more. No football games and dances, no boyfriends and parties for her. Graduation? I just don't know. We are coming to the end of her sophomore year and she should have earned 160 credits toward graduation at this point. She might have 50 by June. She plans on college someday, and I can only hope and pray. Even her choices for the future are dictated by her health. Health insurance will always be an issue. So much for telling her to let her heart lead her to a career choice, instead it's "find a career where you can get good company insurance with no clause for preexisting conditions".

BTW- still waiting to hear from the surgeon's office.

Still Waiting...

We expected to hear back from the surgeons office the end of last week with a date. No such luck; I called them on Thursday to give a gently nudge. The woman I talked to said that the day we were there they had 41 patients instead of their normal 10-15 and all needed to get scheduled for surgery. They are just working their way through the list. So, no call Friday either and I'm afraid to leave the house today. I have a fear that if they call and miss me instead of calling my cell they will continue down their list and we will be moved to the bottom. Oh well, I'm meeting a friend for coffee while her mom is in surgery this afternoon. Alex says she will answer the phone if the surgeons office calls, and tell them to try me on my cell. If I don't hear from them today I'll call them tomorrow. My patience is wearing thin as usual.

Pay It Forward

Recently a Cushing's patient, Kristen, invited me to become a member of her Meet-Up Group for Cushing's patients and survivors. It's a virtual group, we won't actually be meeting face to face. Members are sponsors and sponsees, like AA; those who have been through it are there to help those who need support. I've already emailed back and forth with a few "sponsees" and it feels good to be helping someone. Or at least I think I'm helpful!

Sometimes I wonder if there is a path I'm supposed to be finding here. Maybe God has a plan I'm not aware of? A friend of ours was recently injured and I spent 2-3 hours at the hospital every day with him for over a week. I know he thought I was crazy to be there all the time, but I have this total conviction that every patient needs an advocate (they just don't always know it). Maybe a few years down the road this will all become clear to me? I wonder if there is an income potential for this? On the other hand maybe a few years down the road I will be fighting the same battle, older and wiser still.

Statistics from Dr. Duh

Prior to yesterday we had been told BLA would offer a 99% cure rate for Cushing's. Dr. Duh, believes the rate to be closer to 90%. Of those "uncured" approximately 5% will need further treatment, the other 5% are still producing some cortisol, but not an amount that is worrisome. He spoke about adrenal remnants that can be left behind at surgery; tiny pieces of the adrenals can be missed even with meticulous surgical skills. As an added bonus other endocrine organs can also "learn" to make cortisol. He said he has one patient that he feels was a surgical failure, but she is thrilled because her body has decided to produce only the appropriate amount of cortisol and she no longer needs to take replacement hydrocortisone. If that's not a success I don't know what is!

I like hearing 99%, but I think the new number is more accurate based on patients experiences I know of. I'd like to think BLA will be the end of a long hard road, but realistically, well...I won't be letting my guard down.

A Change In Attitude

I'm feeling so much more positive since my last entry. Today we met Dr. Duh at UCSF, he is their top dog for endocrine surgery, and was one of the first in the country doing BLA's laparascopically. He's done over 500 and really sounds like he knows his stuff.

I went in prepared to fight and was pleasantly surprised. The "fellow" came in first and had a really nice talk with us, he was really well informed and did a great presentation. I got totally antsy when he made comments to the effect that we would probably need to do "a little more" testing, get an adrenal CT and eek, meet with their endocrinologist. I held most of my thoughts 'till Dr. Duh came in as well. He is really great, very personable and very knowledgeable as well~ a really great bedside manner! He offered to have us speak to his endocrinologist, but it wasn't mandatory. Needless to say we told him we weren't interested. We will work with one of the UCSF pediatric endocrinologist while in the hospital, but that's all. He looked at the CT done at NIH and said another isn't needed and the only tests he wants done are a single cortisol, an ACTH level and one 24hr. UFC. He said they are just to have a baseline. He gets the "cyclic thing" and completely understands that the numbers are likely to be completely normal and he has no problem if they are. He event talked about diurnal variation, and how 8:00 AM's weren't necessarily significant in cyclics!

His scheduler is supposed to call us the end of next week. They did say it is going to be a while before he has an opening for surgery; June at best, August at worst. Alex says she would prefer to wait for him than to use someone else; I'm feeling the same way. It feels comfortable; she will be back in the same pediatric ICU where she was for the last surgery and they were really great. Once again... we wait!

Anger and Bitterness

Negativity is seeping from my pores. Most of the time I handle it, but some days...it gets the best of me. Right now I hate most "medical professionals", those who don't care, those with the big egos, those without enough time. This round of bitterness stems from an e-mail last night from the surgeon at Stanford. He hasn't heard back from Dr. Friedman and feels that we should, after all, see the endocrinologist he works with. Why don't we just come back down to Stanford and see what he has to say? Ummm...maybe because I don't care what he has to say? Maybe because Alex doesn't need to suffer through another 7 hour day of driving? Maybe because he will say he has a different opinion and doesn't think that a BLA is the best decision? I am well aware that Alex's case is "complex". Why do these guys get to spend a half hour with a patient and determine what is "best". Okay, so they went to medical school while I was at beauty college, but I am the one who has exhaustively researched what is right for my child. I guess this means we got to S.F. for the Friday appointment with Dr. Duh. I suppose he will say the same thing?

Medical Alert Jewelry

We still haven't ordered a medical alert bracelet. I am being totally indecisive on this one. A year ago, before pituitary surgery we had this same dilemma. Alex wants something that looks pretty: I want something that screams "read me in an emergency". Last time we ended up getting a silver bracelet from Tiffany's. One of the popular ones with the "return to Tiffany's" heart shaped charm. Theoretically we were going to put the medic alert charm on the same bracelet. Of course Alex loved her Tiffany's bracelet so much she didn't want to ruin the look by adding the ugly charm. In the end she never really wore the medical charm. We knew pretty quickly that she wasn't cured and that it wasn't that important.



So here we are again, bracelet? necklace? good quality to last forever? cheap to be replaced frequently? I'd like to know if having the "name" brand makes a difference in an emergency; do paramedics or docs actually call the number to get the information from the service? There is a yearly membership fee. To use their service you have to buy the bracelet from them, and they seem to have the ugliest collection.



Alex pointed out that since I probably won't leave her side for months post op it's not like we are in a big hurry to order. It's just not like me to procrastinate!

A Step In the Right Direction

This is from my email box this morning.
Mrs. Bibby,
I've exchanged messages with Dr. Friedman. Expect to talk to him soon and will get back to you right away. I have reviewed your daughter's records in more detail, and your decision to proceed with the bilat adrenalectomy does seem very appropriate.
BV
This seems like we are making progress anyway. I wish I knew his definition of "soon".

Blog Visitors

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If you are reading this will you please either click on the tab and post a brief comment to let me know you've stopped by, or if you have my e-mail address send me a quick note? Thanks!

I Should Have Seen It Coming

Well, I got the rug pulled from under my feet again. It felt more like getting hit up side the head with a shovel. How is it that I remain optimistic going in to these appointments? Will I never learn?

Yesterday morning Alex was feeling particularly awful. She was in a low to rival all lows. Before we could even leave the house she took 3 doses of hydro to get past the extreme nausea. A three hour drive got us to Stanford just in time for her 2:00 appointment. The receptionist told us Dr. V was running 45 minutes to an hour behind. The finally called us into the exam room at 3:40. Another hour later we were still waiting. I stuck my head into the hall and complained. They sent in a doc in training. He was completely lost and baffled; he had none of the information needed. Out he goes. A little after 5:00 (yes this was a 2:00 appointment) the doc in training along with the surgeon arrived. By then Alex and I are completely frazzled and exhausted.

Dr. V gave us a heartfelt apology for the wait and gave us his full attention. The good news? I really do like the guy and feel he is qualified to do the surgery. The bad news? He feels "considering the complexity of the case" he needs to talk things over with Dr. Friedman and some of his Stanford associates before he is willing to schedule surgery. I can't blame the guy I guess, he doesn't know Dr. F, so his caution is warranted. I know I should respect that he is not someone to jump in to life altering surgery uninformed. I just wanted so badly for this to go more smoothly.

I swear the long wait threw me off my game. I should have explained my decision making process; I thought of that in the car on the way home. This morning I sent Dr. F an e-mail to tell him to expect to hear from Dr.V, but who knows how long it might take for the two of them to connect by phone. I sent Dr. V an e-mail as well. I gave him a complete explanation of all the things I failed to mention yesterday. I just don't know what to think now. I don't know when we will hear back or if he will be willing to do the surgery once he talks to everyone.

Another Sinus Infection

Prior to pituitary surgery Alex never had a sinus infection; things change once they mess around inside there. This past year she has had several, the latest one this week. Over the weekend she was complaining of a headache, eye pain, sinus pain and had a low grade fever off and on. Sunday night she had her first ever gushing nose bleed. Weird, because earlier in the evening she said it felt like something popped in there. The problems are always on the left side; it's the one they went in through for surgery.We saw the pediatrician on Monday and got Alex started on Augmentin yesterday. Hopefully 10 days of antibiotics will get rid of it this time.

It's going to be a week of appointments. Next up is the G.I. doc on Thursday, followed by the surgeon at Stanford on Friday. Next Monday she has a dental appointment. It should be fun just getting her up and out of the house that many days in a one week time frame. As of yesterday she seems to be cycling up, so that should help, if it lasts.

Fast Forward? A New Surgeon

The wait has been killing me. No doubt I mentioned this before, but Dr. Duh can't even see us till 3 weeks from today and who knows how long after that till he has time for the actual surgery. When I spoke to his office weeks ago they said he was scheduling surgeries in June. Does that mean by the time we see him and are allowed to schedule he won't have openings till July? August?

The night before last Alex was literally crying herself to sleep. I hate that I can't do anything, it is so frustrating as a mom to watch your child in pain (and depressed) and not be able to do anything but tell them to wait it out. Anyway, I had a talk with God that night and told him I didn't think I could do this much longer and needed some divine intervention. When I woke up the next morning (yesterday) I was feeling inspired to do something about it and I sent a quick email to Stanford University asking if they had anyone with experience in laparascopic BLA. A surgeon, Dr. Visser, called me within hours and left a message, and also replied to the email saying he would get in touch.

Last night he called, with apologies for not getting hold of me sooner! Okay, I love this guy already! He is young and not an endocrine surgeon, but those are both things I can live with. He says he does an adrenalectomy every other week and has about 50 under his belt. He did explain that he is young and has done fewer (obviously) than the surgeons who have been doing it for decades. He trained at UCSF and considers Dr. Duh a mentor. He has extensive skills in laparascopic surgery and has never had to convert a lap surgery to an open surgery. The really exciting part? We now have an appointment to see him a week from today! He says he will get Alex in for surgery quickly after that if we are interested. Most of his patients are cancer patients and don't have the luxury of waiting, so he gets them in quickly.

So, for today it feels like my prayers were answered. I think Alex and I were both a bit shell shocked last night. It seems scary now that surgery might be a reality in the near future.

Radiation? Where did this come from?

I will never get used to e-mails from doctors. Somehow it's just seems wrong to find life altering information waiting between the Viagra ads and lottery winner notifications in my inbox. Last week I heard from Dr. McC and forwarded the message (see my last post) to Dr. Friedman, today I received his response to it.

Interesting
I would vote for repeat pit surgery, if its not too late, if she goes for bla, I would probably do radiation therapy to those spots

How do I respond to this one? I was feeling quite comfortable with my decision; now I'm second guessing again. What is he thinking here? Is he considering this a fast growing tumor? I thought those were the only ones that needed radiation. Guess it's time to do some more research on that. At this point I suppose I should think about the very real possibility that although we are looking at a 99% cure rate from Cushing's with BLA, it doesn't mean the war is over.

The headaches are back. That's a biggy for me. If only we could tell whether the cause of the headaches is fluctuating cortisol levels or "mass effect" of the tumor. All the docs have told me that a little tumor like these are couldn't be causing the headaches, only the cortisol issues could do that. Still I wonder. I will be kicking myself if we do the BLA and the headaches stay. How hard will it be to convince the neurosurgeon to go back in then?

The latest from Dr. McC

In the beginning of January I sent Dr. McC (neurosurgeon) a disk with Alex's 6 month post op MRI, asking for his opinion. This man is a Godsend! I find it unbelievable that a surgeon is willing to look over an MRI, sent from out of state, and give his thoughts on it at no charge whatsoever. In our case this is the 3rd time he has offered his services. Today I received his response.

Dear Mrs. Bibby,
I have looked at the disc you sent, and at the report. I again think there is still some decreased signal in the right half of the gland, which was what I saw on the earlier scan but with less certainty. It doesn’t have sharp margins on its medial side, so might be hyperplasia but equally, could be a subtle area of tumor. The report comments on a small cavity at the bottom edge of this area, which I saw as well, indicating that in the previous operation this area was touched, but it is very small indeed and so I do still think that some residual disease is still present. The left side of the gland looks fine. I know you mentioned trying to decide on repeat pituitary surgery vs. adrenal surgery—this is always a personal decision, and it is honestly hard to know whether removing the area in questions would effect a cure, or whether it would not. Certainly the possibility of causing diabetes insipidus would be present, as such removal would take the surgeon quite close to the stalk. Let me know if I can help further.

So, my feeling is that going forward with the BLA is still the right decision. It's really hard not to do a second pituitary surgery when the surgeons can see something on MRI, but I have a hard time buying that a possible cure makes it worth the risks. This is the first I've heard mention of concern for diabetes insipidus based on the location of Alex's tumor. Permanent DI can be treated, but that's just one more thing to worry about if we were to choose a second pituitary surgery.

Dual Diagnosis- Crohn's Disease

Around the same time Alex was diagnosed with Cushing's Disease she was also diagnosed with Crohn's Disease. I'm still not sure I buy this one, and actually her GI doc isn't so sure either. Alex started seeing a local ped's GI doctor back in 2003. At that point in time she was having bouts of abdominal pain and what she would describe to us at the time as "throwing up in her mouth". This eventually led to a diagnosis of irritable bowel (characterized by intermittent constipation and diarrhea), and of acid reflux. Down the road a bit they scoped her and gave her the label of erosive esophagitis. Symptoms waxed and waned over the years and she tried lots of different meds. The next time they scoped her they added gastritis as a diagnosis. A few years later they scoped her again, had her do a "pill camera" and they also ran an upper GI with small bowel follow through. This round of testing brought us to the Crohn's diagnosis. By then (about a year ago) Alex had scarring and lesions all the way through her digestive system; esphagitis, gastritis, ileitis, and proctitis. Gee, I guess this would explain the pain?

So now here's the question...does she really have Crohn's or is this all caused by Cushing's? Crohn's is often treated with steroids; Alex has an abundance of steroids, except when she is in a low cortisol cycle, then she has sub normal levels. Could her body be trying to treat itself by producing excess cortisol? Or, could the Crohn's not exist at all and the GI symptoms are just triggered by the cycling steroids in her body?

We may get some answers once she has the BLA. After surgery she will be on steroids for life. It will be interesting to see how it all works out. I hope and pray once steroid levels are normalized in her body her GI symptoms will disappear. My biggest fear? That she really does have Crohn's and that steroid replacement post-op will be a nightmare to manage, with more needed every time the Crohn's flares up.

We have an appointment

I reached the surgeons office yesterday and managed to get on their calendar. I hope this means he is willing to actually do the surgery. Personally I'd like to skip this step; his record speaks for itself. I'd prefer to make an appointment for surgery and just meet him the day before at the pre-op. No such luck. We have an appointment on April 17th, five more weeks of waiting. Until then I will be praying that he doesn't meet with us simply to tell us he won't do the surgery.

Of course the scheduled the appointment for 9:00am. That means we will need to spend the night in San Francisco. Alex and I both love the city, but a bargain room and parking is $200.00. The drive from here is only about 2 hours during non-rush, but at that time of day it would take us 4. There's no way I could get Alex in the car at 5:00am, she usually can't get out of bed till noon.

Phase 2- diagnosis

This starts from where my "In the Beginning" post leaves off.

After returning from NIH with no answers I was initially frustrated beyond words. With a little time and encouragement from my friends at cushings-help.com I mailed the disk with Alex's pituitary MRI that was done at NIH to Dr. McCutcheon at MD Anderson Cancer Center in Houston. I also scheduled a January appointment in Los Angeles with endocrinologist Dr. Theodore Friedman.

On New Years Eve, December 31, 2007 I received an email from Dr. McCutcheon. Here is part of his response, "By my reading there is indeed a lesion in the pituitary, largely occupying the right half of the gland..." He went on to explain, in detail, what he saw and the implications. With this piece of the puzzle we were finally getting somewhere! With this Alex's pediatrician was able to refer us to neurosurgeons at both Stanford University and the University of California, San Francisco (UCSF) both in January. Although the radiologist at NIH was unable to see irregularities in the pituitary all 3 neurosurgeon were able to see a problem.

January also took us to Los Angeles for our initial appointment with Dr. Friedman. He told us from the beginning that he was fairly certain Alex had Cushing's disease. He ordered more testing and on Easter of 2008 we received an email from him with an official diagnosis and recommendation for pituitary surgery. Surgery was then scheduled at UCSF with Dr. Sandeep Kunwar.

The Referal Process

Apparently this is going to take a while! Dr. Friedman sent his referral to me by email, and sent nothing to the surgeon directly (he told me I could send it over myself). I faxed it over to the surgeons office but I was doubtful they would be happy with it, all he actually sent was the dictation of our appointment. I followed up by calling the surgeons office yesterday. I was right, they wanted a lot more information before they would consider setting up an appointment. I ended up faxing over lots of page of lab results, prior dictations, radiology reports etc. Hopefully this will be enough for them to schedule an appointment. They did tell me on the phone that he is scheduling appointment in April for office visits, and we will need one of those prior to surgery. After we see him then we can set up surgery for June; maybe they can squeeze her in sooner since she is a pediatric case. So, nothing is going to be happening any time soon. I will call them back tomorrow and see if they are ready to at least set up the first appointment.

Some of the basics

Cushing's Syndrome can be caused by either a pituitary tumor, an adrenal tumor or an ectopic source. In Alex's case once testing proved positive for excess cortisol and the surgeon could visualize a tumor (or irregularity) on her MRI she was approved for pituitary surgery. Testing was long and involved! Her surgery in May of 2008 was not successful, but it took another round of testing to prove the excess cortisol was still an issue. In her case the pathology from the tissue removed was classified as ACTH hyperplasia. In lay terms I guess I'd say the cells in her pituitary have run amok and a producing ACTH, the chemical messenger that tells her adrenals to make more cortisol. The hyperplasia can be through out the gland and may be hard to identify, even by a skilled neurosurgeon. Alex's surgeon took out what he could see, but if he were to go again again he would plan on removing half of her pituitary and hope he got all of the tumor/hyperplasia. Some people manage fine with only half a pituitary (or less) but the chance of hypopituitaryism, permanent damage to one or more of the 7 functions performed by the pituitary, would be quite high. For this reason we are choosing BLA. The ACTH producing cells will stay, and continue sending out their signal, but there will be no adrenals to receive the faulty message. Of course no adrenal glands means she will forever have to take medications to replace the steroids/hormones her adrenals would normally produce.

Approved for surgery!

We got the call from Dr. Friedman this evening. He has no doubt that Alex still has Cushing's and has given her his approval for surgery. He gave us the choice between a repeat of the pituitary surgery or bilateral adrenalectomy- henceforth known as BLA. After much thought and internal debate we are opting for the BLA. It will mean a life time of steroid replacement but the chance that it will be a cure for Cushing's is 99% vs, at best, 50% with another pituitary surgery. Alex's pituitary surgery, while unsuccessful, at least left her pituitary function intact. We feel that alone is enough reason to avoid going in again; considering the neurosurgeon would plan on removing half of the pituitary itself instead of just tumor the second time around.

We are being referred to Dr. Duh at UCSF, he is one of the few surgeons in the country skilled at bilateral adrenalectomy using a laprascopic approach. Hopefully he will be "on board" with the idea and diagnosis. For now we wait for the referral process.

In the beginning

So, I guess if going to do this I should start at the beginning. I suppose it would have been easier if I'd started blogging years ago. Never the less, here goes...

The first time we really realized there was a problem Alex was 7. It started with complaints of frequent severe headaches. When we really got her to articulate we realized that she actually had a headache, to some degree, 24/7. With the help of a great pediatrician and an awesome neurologist Alex was diagnosed with "chronic daily migraine". Over the next couple years we tried every migraine/headache remedy known to man. Daily meds, acute meds, injections and all. Some worked better than others, but nothing gave us resolution.

By the time Alex was 9 or 10 she started having G.I. issues as well. nausea, abdominal pain, vomiting, heartburn, reflux and diarrhea. Off we went to the pediatric GI doc. Scoping at that point revealed erosive esophagitis and more meds were started.

Around that same time Alex had a big weight gain, about 40lbs. in 3 months. After an afternoon chatting with friends I really started worrying about the weight gain. They knew how active Alex was and how little she ate, as well as how much I worry about my kids eating healthy. They pointed out to me that this just wasn't normal. I came home and 'googled' "unexplained weight gain". That was when I first learned about Cushing's Syndrome. Way back then I said to Brian "I would literally bet my life that this is what Alex has".

Off we went, back to the pediatrician, begging for a referral to an endocrinologist. No problem, but he was certain it couldn't be Cushing's, it's too rare. He ran the "gold standard" test for diagnosis, a 24 hour urine cortisol. It came back normal and he felt comfortable telling us she didn't have Cushing's, she was probably just unlucky and had a poor metabolism. Back and forth on this we went for a few years. He ran the same test yearly and it revealed nothing. He sent us to "healthy lifestyle classes", what a joke. By that time Alex could have been teaching the healthy lifestyle classes. At 10 or 12 she was learning calorie counts and reading fat content on everything she ate. The weight continued to accumulate even on low calorie diets. At one point she ate 1000 to 1500 calories a day, was exercising and still averaged a pound a week weight gain over 2 months of dieting.

Thank goodness for our great pediatrician who believed us! She used an analogy many Cushing's patients hate to hear, but for us it was reversed. In med school docs are told "if you hear hoof beats in Central Park it's probably a horse, don't look for zebras". Dr. Leong shared this analogy with us and then stated, "You are a zebra! And we are going to get this figured out." This was followed by more neurologists, more endocrinologists, two opthamologists, an OB/GYN, a psychologist, a hematologist, an acupuncturist, a chiropractor, biofeedback, pharmaceuticals, MRI's, CT's, ultrasounds, blood draws, urine collections, saliva collections, need I continue?

By the time Alex was 12 or 13 she was sick enough that she was unable to attend school on a regular basis. The headaches and GI issues were incapacitating and she had also started having vision problems, dizzy spells and "hot flashes". The school district put her on home/hospital stay and a tutor came to the house to work with her when she was able. At times the illness would seem to go in to a remission and Alex would return to school for brief stints with her peers.

In the spring of 2007 Alex saw an endocrinology "fellow" at Stanford University. As a last ditch effort before leaving, dismissed yet again, I pulled out my "before and after" pictures. We watched as the doctors chin dropped and she began back peddling. She suggested further testing for Cyclic Cushing's might be in order.

With her recommendation in hand I sent off an e-mail directly to the National Institutes of Health in Bethesda Maryland. To my complete and utter surprise I received a prompt response indicating they were willing to see Alex for evaluation. Of course there was a wait of 5 months before they could see her. Time crawled by as we waited and I put all my eggs in this basket. In November of 2007 we flew to Maryland for a week of inpatient evaluation. The experience was great, but once again we were sent away without a diagnosis.

With no where else to turn the next step for us was consulting the true wizards of pituitary surgery (Dr. Ian McCutcheon at MD Anderson Cancer Center in Texas) and Cyclic Cushing's (Dr. Theodore Friedman in Los Angeles). Dr. McC was ever so kind as to read Alex's MRI at no charge and give us his opinion and as far as Dr. F, well, out of pocket expenses skyrocketed, but what price can be placed on your child's health? Our last ditch efforts paid off and Alex was finally diagnosed!

Experimenting

Well, lets see if I'm smart enough to add a photo! This is the kids at the vacation house on the Oregon Coast at Christmas. It took all of Alex's "spoons" to look picture perfect. She usually won't let us take her picture.

Too old to blog?

This may be over my head, but I'm going to give it a shot. I'm a "hunt and peck" keyboarder and have no computer skills. I have a lot of thoughts bouncing around in my head and thought it might be good to put them down on "paper". Theoretically I plan to do most of my blogging about my daughter Alex, and the battle we have been fighting together to rid her permanently of Cushing's Disease.