Friday, September 25, 2009

Called In To See the Principal

I so hate this. I got a phone call from Alex's high school counselor earlier this week, the principal needs to meet with us. I ended up going in sans Alex; she wasn't up to it. I had to meet with the counselor and the new principle. I've decided I want the old principal back. I didn't cry 'till I was back home.

I understand their viewpoint, I feel the same way. Alex has completed 60 credits out of 260 needed to graduate. She won't graduate at this pace (duh). She is a junior, less than 2 years left to accomplish the goal. None of this is news to me, but I don't know what I'm supposed to do about it. I was told to push her harder. If I push any harder one of us (or both) is going to break. I'm sure, to the school, I just look like a mom who doesn't care, who thinks dropping out is an option. That's so not me, but how do I get that across to them? They said we need a note from the doctor saying exactly what Alex is "able" to do. They say " the doctor must be able to do something. The doctor must understand how this will affect her life." Really? Who is this doctor they speak of? I'd like to meet him. We are on our own... the doctors say give it time.

Tick, tick, tick.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Two Months Ago Today

It's been quite a while so I decide I should say something.

We have reached the two month post-op point and I don't quite know what to think. Things are going okay, but not great. We were forewarned that recovery was likely to take a year. I think we are really just expecting too much too soon. We saw such major improvements right away, but since then there have been no significant changes.

Alex seems to have enough energy (spoons for those who know what I'm talking about) to make it through about 2 hours of activity daily. That means she can work for 2 hours, or do school work for 2 hours, or shop for 2 hours. That's really a huge improvement from how she was prior to surgery, but darn it we want more! It seems like there is always a problem that calls for more hydro: the flu shot, her menstrual cycle, catching a cold. Each thing seems to take over her body for a week and put recovery at a standstill. It's very frustrating.

We are still fighting the fatigue, headaches, and anxiety, and have seen only a few pounds of weight loss. Oh, and a new thing...both knees are twitching constantly to the point it has made her legs ache and have a bit of visible bruising. Weird. I'm thinking maybe her potassium is low or we need to reduce her Florinef.

My Cushie friend Robin sent me some articles on BLA recovery and quality of life. I need to let them sink in and realize this is gonna take some time.